Ugh

So I've had to go back to the ER several times for my 'unexplainable pains'. The doctors have told me that if I start my period soon, that means it was cysts rupturing. I have started bleeding today but I have also stopped. This helps to give evidence of the cysts but also does not explain the pains. Ah, I'm just so tired of not feeling well. I have to wait for the doctors to get their thumbs out of their asses and fix me. Doubt it will happen since it's been so long already but all I can do is hope. I'm going to Enid hopefully Wednesday to get my insurance cards again. Then I can go see someone else to try to explain my pains. I don't know what to do. I'm hurting and its effecting my work, my mood, my everything. I'm looking for another job. Still have not gotten any responses. I tried to become a manager at my apartment complex but my application was denied and they hired someone else. I'm so angry about not being able to get that job but I guess its because something better is coming along. I just wish it would hurry up and get here so that I can stop worrying about money and such. Sykes blows. It honestly is horrible. I feel worse every time I go there. Everyone I know is looking for a job out of there. I'm just hoping and praying for something to come along to help me out. I need a job that can accomodate my breast-feeding my son and can work around my doctors visits and pains. I know I'm asking a lot but I don't know what else to do. I'm just trying to survive and hang on. I'm good on my bills until October so that's an amazing feat for me (of which I'm very proud of) but I am looking into the future trying to make sure that I can make ends meet.