Tired

I'm so tired. I try to sleep and my insomnia won't let me. When I am actually able to fall asleep, Enya chooses that exact time to wake up and need something. She goes back to sleep relatively quickly but then it takes me forever to fall asleep again. My pregnancy dreams have started early. Messed up and wierd. So it's almost like I don't want to sleep because I'm freaked out about what I'll dream. Nothing frightening or necessarily bad, it's just.... my dreams while pregnant are sometimes things that should not be in my head.

I had a conversation with Cyrus a little while back about why we see the things we do. Why we dream things. Cyrus takes Ambien to sleep and when he does not go directly to sleep, he sees things. Colors, little people, animals.... random things like that. That is what started the conversation. We never came to any conclusion. It's like listening to people talk about times that they've tripped or done drugs. Some people see snakes, others see just colors.... why? What is it about their subconsious that makes them see those particular things? I'll never know the answer but it is still something to ponder.

I guess that it's the hormones that cause pregnant women to have strange dreams. It brings out subliminal thoughts.

It's really hard to type with a 6 month old sitting in your lap twisting to look at you. She's precious though and she's wanting attention. I'll give it to her :)

Until next time: Love, Kisses and Blessings.

Cyrus

As I said, I was married on January 23rd, 2009. Exactly 8 months before my daughter, Enya, was born. I met Cyrus Jeffery Cummings at a Pagan Festival called Hearland on May 10, 2008. I had gone to the festival early with my suedo-boyfriend (at the time). I went into a campsite looking for my longtime friend, Uno. He and his beautiful wife, Kissi, had gone into town for work. At Uno's campsite, I met one of the other room mates living in their apartment, PacMan. We sat and chatted for a little while until we heard one of the tents a ways back unzip. The conversation then goes as follows:
*zip*
Unknown- What time is it?
PacMan- About 10:30.
Unknown- The Cyrus is going back to sleep!
*zip*
Me- *giggle giggle*
*zip*

Cyrus then decided that since he heard a female voice it was time to wake up. He comes stumbling out of the tent, pretty much naked except for a scrap of sarong he is holding in front of himself. He sits and talks with us for awhile until PacMan has to leave. Cyrus then made breakfast for my 'friend', himself and I. After a bit we leave and see Cyrus off and on throughout the day.
My friend leaves the next day and my brother, Cody, comes out to visit me. There is a party over at Uno's campsite that night that we attend. We all have a good time and Cody and I return to our campsite. After about 30 minutes of sleep I feel my bed shift and I open my eyes to find Cyrus in my tent staring at me. He tells me to come outside with him and go up to Bardic for the last of the fire there. After much debating and trying to go back to sleep, I reluctantly agreed to go with Cyrus. We watched the fire and dancers for a bit then we headed down to the bath house. On the way down what I call the Stairs of Death, Cyrus stopped me and asked to kiss me. It was very sweet. We went back to my tent after so that I could check on my brother and ....

well that's about as far as that part of the story goes. We continued to spend time together throughout the festival. After Heartland was over, we kept up contact for the next few months until he went off to Fort Benning, GA for Basic Training. While he was there, we wrote to each other. Once Basic was over, Cyrus had a few weeks off before he had to report to his duty station. I picked him up from the airport and spent those few weeks with him and I took him down to Killeen, TX (his duty station). We continuted to see each other as often as possible. I would go down and visit him for a week or so at a time.

We decided that we wanted to have a baby together. Cyrus was dead set on a little girl. I became pregnant at the end of December. I went down to see Cyrus on January 22, 2009. That night we went and saw a movie and he told me that the next day I needed to dress up because we were going to have our pictures taken together. The next day, we got all dressed up and on the way to what I thought was the photo place, Cyrus asked me to marry him! He told me that we were on our way to get a copy of my birth certificate so that we could go to the courthouse and have the ceremony done by a justice of the peace. After the hassel of the birth certificate, we were married in Court room 2 by Justice of the Peace Bill Cooke. It was a very exciting day!

I stayed in TX with Cyrus until February 3rd and Cyrus left for Iraq on February 5th, 2009. He was able to come home for the birth of our first child Enya Luna Cummings. He finally returned home for good on January 18th, 2010. We have since moved all of our possessions to our apartment in Killeen, TX.

I love Cyrus more than I can stand sometimes but I know that he does too. He has made me so happy and I know that he will continue to every day for the rest of our lives!

Baby Names

So Cyrus and I have decided upon two names, both being first names. One for a boy and one for a girl. If the child is male, his name will be Lestat. We have yet to decide upon a middle name. At one point in time it was going to be Corgan but I think we are both set against it. We've also semi-discussed some kind of tribute to Cyrus' late Uncle Kevin. It's a hard topic to broach so it hasn't been discussed much.
If the child is female, her name will be Rhayne. We both really love the name. Cyrus came up with the name and I, the spelling. No middle names discussed here either however, I have been thinking about the middle name Echo. In Greek mythology, there is a terrible but beautiful story about a nymph named Echo. She tried to keep the Queen Goddess, Hera, from finding her husband Zeus off gallavanting with the other nymphs. For her treachery, Hera cursed Echo so that she may only repeat what others have to say. One day she came upon a young beautiful man named Narcissus who shunned her and all others. He found no one beautiful until one day he came upon a stream and while stooping to drink, he saw his reflection. Poor Echo had continued to follow him hoping that one day he would come love her. However, since he had fallen in love with himself, she could only repeat his words of love knowing they were not for her. Being able to bear it no longer, she found a cave and stayed there until she wasted away. Only her voice was left as a memory and to this day, she is still cursed with only being able to repeat others.

Like I said a sad story but it is very beautiful to me. I will talk to Cyrus about it later and see what he thinks. We like to have our children's names have some sort of meaning. For instance, Enya Luna means Little Fire Moon. So I think that Rhayne Echo would be a beautiful name for a little girl.

Well that was just my thoughts before bed. Until next time: Love, Kisses, and Blessings.

First Blog, New Site

Hello. First and foremost, I am by no means the best at blogging. Nor do I blog daily. Most of my blogs are just things that I've noticed, been through, are dealing with, and overall just want to share.

Now that's out of the way....

My name is Kristin Jackson DuganCummings. I am 21 years old and I am pregnant with my second child. My first is a little girl name Enya Luna Cummings and she is the light of my life. Everyday she learns something new and makes me smile more times than I can count. Enya is 6 months old. She was born on September 23rd, 2009 in Ponca City, OK.
I had a confirmed pregnancy test done on March 19th. I'm guessing that I am about a month and a half along with my second child. I cannot decide whether or not I want to have a boy or a girl. Both have their ups and downs. More about that later.

I was married on January 23rd, 2009 to the love of my life Cyrus Jeffrey Cummings. I'll give an explaination later of how we met and all the tid-bits about that. Needless to say, he loves me unconditionally and I love him all the more for it. Cyrus is in the military and is currently ranked SPECIALIST. Not that high up but it's better than being a private.....(hehehe Private Cummings) :)

Some days seem do drone on and other fly by. Since I stay at home all day with my little girl I don't really lead an active life. I try to go to the gym when possible and occasionally I hang out at parties with my husband playing DD for him and his friends. I cook, I clean, I do everything and sometimes I feel unappreciated as most people do but I know that everything I do is appreciated. Things are about to get very chaotic around my household due to the pregnancy and the upcoming move to CO. I was thrown into this life very quickly and sometimes I feel like I the rabbit hole will never end. I'm used to being thrown into situations but marriage and children were not things I ever expected to take on so quickly. I love everyday I get to spend with my family. I cherish every second.

Enough of my ramblings for now. Until next time: Love, Kisses, and Blessings.